When I think about you it is hard to not focus on how you died. I know I shouldn’t let my thoughts go to that place, instead I should remember your infectious laughter, your love of biscuits and your sometimes very crazy, but very cool fashion fashion styles.
I should be remembering how much fun we had dancing around my bedroom to Lenny Kravitz and how we spent so many lazy Sundays lying in my bedroom talking about boys. I should be recalling trips to the beach and crying on each others shoulders when our hearts were broken by those boys.
You were the person who truly got me, you were the person who made me laugh like I had never laughed. You mattered to me! Did you know how much I loved you? The last time I called I had to leave a message, I told you I loved you, I told you that I hoped you were out having fun, did you get my message, did you hear it? I will never know.
The next time I saw you, you were laying in a hospital bed, a machine breathing for you. Brain dead they said.
I sang Lenny Kravitz to you, ‘felids of joy,’ did you hear me? Did you know I was there?
I want to stop being angry that you are gone. I want to stop being so sad.
I miss you.
I want to stop focusing on the fact that you are gone, and focus on how blessed I was that you were here, that you made me so happy, that knowing you made my life better, that being loved by you was such a gift. I hope you can hear me even now, I hope you know how much I will always cherish you.
Living Fearlessly Authentic Round Up!
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28 comments
Such a beautiful post. Sending love, xxx
thank you that means so much
Hugs, MG. Life sometimes can be so cruel especially when memories live on and makes you wonder why it happened.
thank you for your thoughtful comment xx
It’s hard to lose someone you love. Sending you hugs.
yes, so hard xx
Your post was heartwrenching – so sorry. 🙁
Thanks for the reminder to pop by!
~Jess
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Thank you so much Jess x
Oh gosh, this moved me so much. I instantly thought of my best friend and what I would do if she wasn’t here any more. Sending love X #MG
it is so hard, I am so blessed to have amazing people in my life, but I miss her so much it hurts xx
Oh gosh Mac. I hope you’re okay. Sending virtual hugs. Pen x
honestly I am just having a tough time with it all right now, but I have amazing love around me. Thank you for asking though, it means more than you know xx
Oh gosh Mac. I hope you’re okay. Sending virtual hugs. Pen x
This is so sad. I really hope you are ok. #mg
Thank you so much, I am not great, but I will be OK xx
A touching post. People we love are hard to get over.
so hard xx
Such a beautiful post Mackenzie. Big hugs! Losing someone is always hard
thank you x
I’m so sorry for your loss Mac! Losing a loved one is one of the hardest things to go through in life. I lost a friend seven years ago (next month is the anniversary of his death). He was like a brother to me and I still miss him every day. The wound does heal the scar remains forever. Next month will be a little rough just knowing he isn’t here and knowing everything that he is missing with my kids growing up so fast. I know he would be so proud of them. Thanks so much for sharing this beautiful post with us Mac! #mg
I am so sorry you have felt this loss Michelle, it is hard to know they are not here to see our children grow, and for our children to see their light. Thank you for sharing this with me
Mackenzie, I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing the beauty of your friendship here along with your grief.
thank you xx
So sorry for your loss. There are few who truly touch us and it’s very difficult to loose them. Sending you hugs and strength.
thank you for your kindness
Hugs, Mac. It seems like we’re both going through loss at this time….Thank you for being the beautiful soul you are. ♥
Blessed are we that have got to experience time with that person. I’m sorry for your loss. #mg
Sending you loads of love hun, I hope you are doing ok. It is so hard loosing a loved one and that pain never really goes away completely. We just need to remember the happy times and try not to be sad. This post is beautifully writtten xxx #mg
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