I had one of those mornings, you know a ‘mummy’ morning. The one’s where ‘mum guilt’ really comes into its own! Despite knowing better, despite telling myself that I didn’t need to feel bad, there are just moments where common sense flies out the window and you feel like the worst mummy ever!

Now clearly I know ‘logically’ I am very far from being the worst mummy ever, in fact I know I am a good mum, but when your newly seven year old is crying when you take him to school against his will you feel like you are failing as a ‘good mum’.

This morning he insisted that he was too tired to go to school, and you know what he is tired, we all are. My kids went back to school on Monday after 2 weeks off and to make matters worse for some reason, (totally illogical if you ask me), ‘they’ decide that they should time the return from school holidays with the daylight savings change. Meaning that we feel like we are getting up an hour earlier! Why can’t they do it at the start of the holidays, or even the middle????? So yes he is tired, the girls are tired and I am tired too. I wish we could all sleep in, or have the day off, but in ‘real life’ we don’t just say hey I am tired so I’m not going to go anywhere. And although my 7 year old thinks he can I had to tell him he can’t, and let’s just say he was not happy with my response!

I tried reasoning with him, explaining that I understand his feelings. I tried to tell him that tomorrow is the weekend and he can sleep in then. I tried to explain that even if he wasn’t going to school he would still have to get up because I still have to get his sisters to school and he can not stay home alone! I tried explaining that other people are counting on us, but in his world the whole world should revolve around him I guess? I mean can you really argue logic with a seven year old who is over tired??????

So I dropped him off, because although it made me feel like a ‘bad mummy’, I know deep down that dropping him off is what a ‘good mummy’ should do. If I kept him home every time he was tired then he would be home a lot! And he would soon learn that if he cries or gets frustrated that mummy gives in, and then I am opening him up to thinking that this strategy will work on others and the fact is it won’t! Don’t get me wrong I am not against giving kids a day off if they are overly exhausted, and of course I don’t send them to school if they are sick, but this morning was more about just wanting to get his way, and he is a smart kid who will take advantage of me if I let him. So yes I dropped him off and he was crying, I drove away struggling to not cry myself. I told myself there was no point beating myself up and I took a lot of deep breaths, and then had coffee with a few mum friends who assured me I was doing OK, and I was not being a bad mum.

I know I am a good mum, but still there are times as a mum where we feel like we are falling short, and that is OK. My son still thinks I am the best mummy in the world and that I am worthy of being loved to the moon and back. He is amazing, but he is 7 and he will test me because that is what kids do, it is how they learn about the world around them. I am so blessed to have him, and have actually had some lovely days this week getting to visit his classroom and seeing how happy he is at school. Today we just had a rough morning, for him it is already long forgotten, so why should I hang onto feeling bad? I won’t.

here are some pics from my time with him in class

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I actually came across a Vlog I filmed a few weeks back and yet hadn’t published, I watched it and found the day I had filmed it I had actually had another tricky morning, but with the girls. It’s life, we have tricky moments, but as long as we remember to focus on the good stuff, and find a reason to smile, we will be OK! I have attached it if you won’t to watch.

Thanks for joining me, love Mac xx

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