I shouldn’t be shocked, this has happened to me before, but still every time it does I find myself wondering why I wasn’t expecting it.
I guess it is like autopilot, I am on a set course, I have my routine, the way the week will unfold, I know it well. I am fine, just running through the motions, life is busy, life is good, I am happy. Then BAM out of nowhere a trigger and I find myself fighting back the urge to cry, reaching for that breathe I so desperately need to take. My chest hurts, a few rouge tears stream down my face. Where did this feeling come from? I am fine, today has been a good day. I want to make sense of it all, I want there to be a simple question with a simple solution.
I take a few deep breaths. I turn my favourite songs up and I lose myself in the music. I wipe those tears away and I decide that for the next few moments I will fake it until I make it. I gradually feel OK again, I smile, life is good. Little moments like this come, and then they pass. I am strong. There was time that I wasn’t sure I was, but now I have no doubt, I am strong enough to know that only I control me, even though there was time where you tried to convince me otherwise, but in the end I was smarter, I was stronger, and I am proud of who I am.
So yes today I was taken by surprise, but that is OK, I am resilient, and I am happy. I am authentically me, and no one can take that away from me, not now, not ever!
Thanks for joining me, love Mac xx
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WE all have days like this Mackenzie but the important thing is that you recognize that it is ok to feel this way and you know you will bounce back. Take care my lovely xx
I have days like this too. But you’re right, you are strong and you will bounce back. Take care of yourself. #ablogginggoodtime
I can identify with this, especially when I feel I am not in control of a situation. Sending virtual hugs X #ablogginggoodtime
Sometimes our feelings take us by surprise – it happens to all of us! I’m glad you bounced back stronger than before. #ablogginggoodtime
Sending you a big hug – we all have these days and I hope it passes quickly 🙂 #ablogginggoodtime
I had one such day last week after an anxiety-filled sleepless night. It happens to us all. So happy that you now know how to deal with these moments and carry on happily. xx
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This is very reassuring that it’s not just me! I used to really beat myself up about my spontaneous tears and think it meant my low mood was returning but now I realise it’s just her I am and it will pass. #ablogginggoodtime xx
And those are very good things.
I can totally relate, and I am sending a hug for you! xoxo #ablogginggoodtime
You are one strong mama! xo
You are strong. You have overcome. You have triumphed.
I like to know why things suddenly resurface again, too. But sometimes there are no explanations. Just accept that it has arisen and deal with it and put it in its place again, just like you have done with this post. Sending much love #ablogginggoodtime
There are times when we are tested but we will get through. #ablogginggoodtime
It is tough sometimes but we need to give into those emotions to them be able to move forward. Music is always a good remedy. Big hugs. #ablogginggoodtime
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