I feel blocked, the flow is not coming to me with the ease of days before. There’s a resistance in my writing and in my artwork.
A cloud?
I’m not sure? It feels more like something solid pushing against my mind, the part of my mind that accesses happiness, that captures visions and releases creativity.
It makes me feel almost empty, perhaps I would even describe it as sad?
It is not me. I don’t feel like me when I can not create, when I can not sing, or share some sparkle.
I’m writing yes, but not what I want to write. I want to write and feel inspired, not write and still feel lost.
There’s a dark space where the light should be. A darkness I don’t want to acknowledge, or invite in. I think as winter sets in, as I feel the sun hiding in my city I begin to feel fear. Fear because last winter I lost my sparkle. Last winter I felt like I was somehow lost and I couldn’t find my safe place. I have to remind myself I am stronger now. This year is not last year.
I also know that I have amazing people in my life, and no matter how lost I sometimes find myself, they are there, the steady constant. The ever present rays of light that shine through the cracks. For that I am blessed.
Thanks for letting me get that off my chest, love, Kylie xx
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I know where you are coming from, I sometimes feel just as you describe, better times ahead, hopefully #stayclassymama@_karendenbid199@gmail is
From blocked to blessed, and back and forth … so human!! Like you say, this is this year, not last … you will see the light. #ABloggingGoodTime
So sorry to read that you are feeling blocked. I think everyone feels that at some point in time. Maybe it will help to know that you’re not alone. Once, when I was feeling especially blue, I started writing a gratitude journal – one thing every day I was grateful for. When I looked at all the things I had to be grateful for, I felt better.
I’ve been feeling the same and it’s hard, but we have to keep on keeping on, don’t we? Wishing you a breakthrough soon. Hugs.
Every so often, it’s good to take a break from writing –or at least from writing for public consumption. Trusting along with you that you will find your way back to words, and that you will overflow with joy.
You are a saint because you share openly and make yourself vulnerable. It is why we love you and wish you the happiest of winters. You are on very special snowflake. Keep shining but vitally taking very good care of yourself and coming back stronger and with fresh ideas possibly generated by re-reading this very post. Much love. #ABloggingGoodTime
It’s so good that you are able to see the journey you have come on and recognise that this is a fresh year. Sending positive thoughts that you are writing again soon.
#ABloggingGoodTime & #StayClassyMama
I felt like this many time and I just hold on to the fact that time constantly moves and change does happen X #ablogginggoodtime
Sometimes you just have to write until it feels good, and sometimes you take a break until you want to do it again. I fulctuate between the two – both seem to work eventually. Good luck! #Staycvlassymama
and #ABloggingGoodtime
I hope you are able to find the light at the end of the tunnel very soon, if not, at least maybe find a candle or a torch that can lead the way. On the positive note, at least you can see that you have a block, so I’m sending you lots of good vibes to get you through. #ablogginggoodtime
You can’t always feel at your most vibrant and best, and that’s OK. Sometimes sharing how you feel is all it takes to feel better #Abloggimnggoodtime
I absolutely understand that blocked feeling – where the thoughts are just not flowing. I’m feeling a bit of it myself recently and it is a bit alarming. Only this morning when I was walking home from dropping my daughter as school I was trying to think of how I could possibly empty my mind out so that my thoughts will start flowing again. I’ve decided to try fresh air first, a big gulp of it this evening in the form of a run. Maybe you know where you need to begin? We all work in different ways. I hope you manage to unclog it soon x #ablogginggoodtime
I thought this was going to be about social media! Hope you are feeling better now x #ablogginggoodtime
I have a notebook full of post ideas and book ideas but just no time to get them out, plus I doubt myself as most posts go off on a tangent when I actually write them so don’t end up quite as I’d hoped. Thanks for linking up with #stayclassymama and I hope the blockage clears soon!
It’s Summertime here Kylie and I have been feeling blocked. But I think that’s because I’ve been so busy that I haven’t had time to be creative – or to think straight. But I do definitely understand Winter playing a part. I get that way every year but this past Winter I managed to muddle through somehow. I hope your inspiration comes back to you Kylie! Thanks for hosting #ABloggingGoodTime
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